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Its 5am and im still awake.

My brain wont let me sleep.

So i let my brain juices work.

I keep thinking of how 2010 will be and only one thing pops up.

Lets not elaborate :)

2009 was an awesome year.

But i must say that it was disappointing.

Most of my resolutions became a mere idea.

So im hoping 2010 will make it for me.

A new decade, a new found hope?

Maybe?

While laying in bed doing absolutely nothing,

I keep thinking.
Have i chosen another road to take, how will i be like right now?

Imagine, if i hadn't gone to After New Year Party,

My love life will still be in the dumpster.

If i hadn't met aLviN, my life will be me depending on fake people.

If i hadn't had the strength from him to keep going on,

Exactly where will i be?

This kind of questions scare me.

Imagine if i hadn't met aLvin McqueL .

Things will still be fake, i would still care what people think.

I would still be falling for the wrong guys and breaking more hearts.

I admit it was hard changing oh so much,
But it seemed all the worth it for aLvin.

You can say he's the light in my dark dark days.

I have became a wonderful person because of him, i admit.

And i wont have made anything different.
He helped me mature.

Dont believe me?

Read my 2009 January 1st posts.

I swear the odds are uncanny.

Its been a year one month,

Soon 2 months,

In this period of time,

We have had our doubts, our falls and all.

Ego was thrown out of proportion, thrown away.

Hearts were broken and mended.

I admit it hasnt been a bucket of roses.

Each day is a challenge.

But I would go through a lot worst than not having him around.

 

aLvIn, this post is for you.

Wether you read it or not.

I want you to know, in many ways, you have changed me into a better person.

You made me who i am today.

Whatever we have been through has been the best experiances i will ever go through.

Your the reason i keep going.

I know this is cliche but your my everything.

The energy i feed off from.

The reason i get up, eat, sleep, walk, talk.

Your my sweet escape, my beautiful rescue.

How else can i express it now?

I love you, aLvIn.

Oh so much <3